being the eldest daughter/latchkey kid/scapegoat/black sheep/momβs twin while my mom slowly dies from a terminal illness and i have to keep it all together even tho iβm barely able to walk some days and i canβt stop crying but i have to stiff-upper-lip suffer thru because itβs the midwest and weβre catholics and also it is supposed to be about her and they say well look how you R e s i l i e n t you are:)